The past twelve years, I have been so focused on Summer Ray. But it came with a cost. I haven’t received a paycheck for this project, since the day I started writing the story back in February of 2009. God never let me starve, or go without a home, or a vehicle. But it was a very tough journey. My focus eventually became more and more of me getting a paycheck, and I exhausted myself trying to get the funding. The number one goal I had in writing Summer Ray was to bring people closer to the Lord, by exposing just who Satan really is. But I think I became so weary struggling that my number one goal was pushed back, and I directed my attention to finding the funding. I stopped, somewhere a long the way, of putting God first and wrestled in my own strength and failed miserably. A great deal of work has been completed that is absolutely true. But I have to change how I approach my being so driven by it. I need to:
“Seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.” Matthew 6:33
I remember many times getting really frustrated. I was like, “God! You know how hard I am working here. There are things I really want and need. Plus I want to be a giver and help people.”
He didn’t answer me. He just let me vent. I guess I had to wait until I could hear the truth, before He could instruct me on what I was doing wrong. I do not know if I ever lost my passion for the people and maybe for the Lord too, by focusing so much on my own desires. Not gonna lie, twelve years is a long time to sacrifice a paycheck. I spent a lot of angry moments wallowing in self pity. But it was a choice I had made and a choice I continue to make. I know this story needs to be read, as well as seen on the big screen. It will touch the hearts of those who read and see the story. But to me, the greatest impact will be on the screen as the story is brought to life, with appropriate music. I wrote the books more as a way to journal the story. But the scripts do not necessarily follow the books. It is an experience and an epic adventure waiting to happen! This gives me great joy.
“He hath made every thing beautiful in his time.” Ecclesiastes 3:11
Some translations state: “In its time.” Father God has determined exactly when the premiere for the pilot. is. It will be in His time, and it will be in its time. When the film is perfected to the point that everything about it is a “beautiful” production, it will be released to the world. In the meantime, I need to seek His Kingdom first.
“Delight thyself also in the Lord: and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart.” Psalm 37:4
I know and believe in 2022 that great things are going to be happening for Summer Ray. I feel that we have come to the end of one era and are starting another toward production. Thank you for being on this journey with us. We greatly appreciate you!
Juliana
THE MEMOIRS OF SUMMER RAY 