THE MEMOIRS OF SUMMER RAY

 Winter is a beautiful time of year, but only for about 30 seconds! Yet, I would not want to live in a place without it. After coming off a two month broken wrist, I am just finding my way back to my life. This includes the film, my skating and my day to day living. The cast and the pain, made it very hard for me to do much of anything. But I pushed through. Then I found myself almost crawling on the inside. There was so much I needed to do but couldn’t, and I became depressed. I was just not feeling well, for lack of better description. The constant pain and lack of use of my hand, I had zero energy and had zero motivation. The winter weather was up and down, sunny to snowing and freezing to almost warm. It has been like a constant rollercoaster of ups and downs.  I think my mind needed a break. Mentally, I had not been able to break free from the fear of getting hurt again. I was holding myself back. Training to be a figure skater is hard work. It is even harder when there are broken bones involved. With the film, and with skating, you climb  one mountain only to find yourself at the bottom of another. So, advancing comes with a cost. It doesn’t matter how hard you have already worked or for how many years. Because if you want to advance to the next level, it is sort of like starting over again. It is why people quit. They grow weary of having to climb one rung of the ladder, with the bottom of the next glaring at them in the face. It is both exhausting and exhilarating at the same time. But, the rewards don’t come until the goal is complete. What I love about the seasons, they don’t last. In the bitter cold of winter, spring eventually comes. I am not quitting. I just needed to take a slight pause to get myself together! I am back!!!