THE MEMOIRS OF SUMMER RAY

Precision is defined as “the quality, condition, or fact of being exact and accurate.” Although this is a good quality to have, sometimes in the course of trying to be exact and accurate, we can focus too much on the details and almost become obsessed with perfectionism. I am guilty of this. Perfectionism is defined as “a personality trait in which one refuses to accept anything less than perfect.” But how does one know when too much is too much? Some people see it as intimidation if you just want to do something right.

But, I would say to myself and to anyone else who is listening, just do you. Be who you are meant to be and don’t let other people try to deter you or stop you, or to lower your standards. I am not saying that you need to stress yourself out if details are not perfect. Because come on, let’s get real.

I have gone over the script so many times, I have lost count. But, in my quest to be as close to perfect as I can get it, I have come to understand that it is fine to not be 100% perfect. It is as close enough to it and my standards are pretty high. I think that giving my best and doing better than my  best, challenged me and it taught me that I can be stretched and that I can be patient. I learned to slow down and to cross the “t’s” and to dot the “i’s.” I learned that I can listen to the experts without feeling angry. Why? Because they are the experts and I need to learn what they know. So, I am also teachable. We need to stop being so hard on ourselves. We need to understand that it is okay to not reach perfectionism. In fact, if we can let go and just allow ourselves the right to be flawed, than I think (at least for myself), it is like opening the floodgates of freedom. The Liberty Bell, for instance  was symbolic of the times during the Revolutionary pre and post war. But now, it is like a fine emblem of beauty in the midst of something that wasn’t supposed to happen. It wasn’t supposed to crack. But, left hanging unreparable and out of tune, in my opinion – the crack makes the Liberty Bell invaluable.

Sometimes things in our life have to crack, in order for them to become invaluable. Sometimes we are dropped, let down, misunderstood and critized. Sometimes we are rejected by people we never thought we would be. Sometimes, what seemed perfect was merely the illusion of being perfect. Sometimes we are left broken and scarred. But, the lessons learned – are priceless. I am very fortunate to have the kind of people in my corner who are cheering me on for Summer Ray, to be a great success. There are those who hope it falls flat on its face. There were a couple of situtions that I thought to be perfect. But, it was a mirage and I fell for it. Optical illusions happen all the time. So, do I beat myself up or do I learn from it and move forward? I am moving forward knowing that Father God has His seal of approval on this project. He will most certainly make a way where there appears to be none. He sees what I need to see by faith! I am still walking the walk and talking the talk! Building ones faith in a God they cannot see…now that’s priceless. Because “without faith, it is impossible to please Him.” Hopefully, I am pleasing Him more and more with each passing day!