THE MEMOIRS OF SUMMER RAY

On my way to my skating lesson, I hit a detour. Of course, I started to panic as I knew I couldn’t be late. My heart started racing, as I was causing this, “sudden uncontrollable fear or anxiety, often causing wildly unthinking behavior,” which is the definition of panic. The road I had to detour on looked like it was going way out of my way. I thought of turning around, but didn’t. I thought of calling my coach telling her I would be late, but didn’t. I would have had to waste even more time. So, I kept driving on this road thinking, all of the what if’s I could imagine at that moment. I had my dog Sammy with me and the thought of getting lost with him in the car, caused me even more dread. Yes! I had my Google maps on my phone. But normally, I didn’t need it. But there again, having to pull over to find out where I was well, it was also time consuming and I had to get to the rink. Why did I have to get to the rink? To work on the skating program for the film. I kept checking the clock thinking I was like 50 miles out of my way as I kept seeing detour signs, knowing I wasn’t going to make it time.

A car in front of me turned left and I was freaking out even more because I thought I had missed the sign to turn. But I kept driving. Finally, I came to an intersection with another detour sign pointing left. I began to see familiar things and I knew I was traveling back toward my normal route. When I got to the original street I drove on, the detour took me to that exact spot at the same time I would have gotten there, had there been no detour. So what was all the panic for? First of all, I didn’t know where I was going. I didn’t know if I was going to be late for my extremely important lesson. Skating in the film at the Rockefeller Ice Rink, is a dream!

Dreams do come true. But as the card says, “Never give up!” I was sick with COVID and Dysautonomia. I am finally starting to see the light of healing, at least I am starting to. I have a way to go, but I do believe the worst is behind me. I am able to walk a mile without stopping to rest. Yesterday on the ice, I was able to skate a solid twenty minutes without the need for my CPAP. I have seen exactly how I want my part of the program to look and not gonna lie. It is a lot of work. But work that is worth it. I lost about 75% of my skating strength and endurance. I have been fighting to get it back. But I have learned that due to both illnesses, it will take time. I used to get very upset thinking I had missed the chance to skate this program. I used to think I wasn’t going to make it because they would have already filmed that scene with a different skater, by the time I was ready to do it. But detours do not mean I have missed it. A detour is defined as, “long or roundabout route that is taken to avoid something or to visit somewhere along the way.” I may not understand the detours. But I do know that God will get this project where it needs to be on time. He showed me that yesterday. I was like, “How is this possible that I am on time, when I was taken so far out of my way?” I was literally on time as if there was no detour. Summer Ray will not be late. It will be distributed at the exact time God wants it to be, regardless of the detours. We will be at the right place at the right time and that does give me a great deal of peace. He has and will continue to bless this project, as long as I do not give up. In February we start our 17th year. I am in this to, “THE END“!

Thank you for being a part of our Summer Ray world.

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