If I can do it, so can you! Do not give up, no matter what!!!
I never thought 24 years ago, after I suffered a severe brain injury that I would ever become an author, figure skater (again) and now a movie film producer. The odds were just too stacked against me. My chances of survival were slim. Traumatic Brain Injury back in the early 90’s was not an advanced topic in the medical field. I was given narcotic pain medication and was basically told to, “Have a nice life.” I was left to fend for myself while trying to figure out why I couldn’t remember things, or why I would run out of the grocery store because I felt the walls closing in on me. My life was suddenly ripped to shreds and no one could explain why. I could no longer feel my feet, my hands or my left leg. The headaches became so bad I contemplated suicide. The afternoon I actually put my right leg over the top of my 3rd story balcony was to end the pain I was in once and for all, till the phone rang. A friend on the other end told me, “Whatever you are about to do, don’t. God told me to tell you it will get better.” For those who do not believe in God, well I just cannot help myself.
Did it get better? Not at first. It took several years for me to get the help I needed in understanding my injury. It wasn’t until our American soldiers came back with severe head injuries and the results of those injuries, did TBI become well known. But, at least I stopped feeling so alone. I began to read their stories and at times I was like, “Wow! That sounds just like me.” I finally found out how severe my head injury really was. It was then that I took my findings to a doctor who told me, “Do you realize how close to death you came?” I responded, “How close?” He looked at me and with hand gestures he stated, “Your neck was about ¼ inch from snapping.” I spent several years in Chiropractic therapy and eventually weaned myself off the pain medication. But something had to be done about the chronic pain I was living in. I took my family to the ice rink for my oldest son’s birthday party. Out on the ice, I noticed something. I was not in pain, or rather I could not feel the pain due to the cold. That birthday party was seventeen years ago and I have not stopped skating since. I became a Figure Skating Coach, I am working on passing Adult Tests and soon I plan to compete. Who would have thought, back then, after a future that would find me paralyzed, I made a better future instead.
Yet, there was still the issue with working and a career. I could no longer work a normal 9-5 job. Skating was only a few days a week and I had to do something constructive. My love for history sent me back to Gettysburg almost once or twice a week. While researching for a book I was writing, I fell down Big Round Top in the snow and the story of Summer Ray unfolded. The 5-volume series is now complete and available on amazon.com. Yet, it doesn’t stop there. We are now in the Pre-Production phase of our first full feature. The title of the film series is, “This Fair and Blighted Land Part I”
So, you see, if God can turn such a devastating injury around for my good, He can do the same for you as well. I am not saying it wasn’t without difficulty. There were days of excruciating suffering. But, I am still here and things have gotten better. But, I had to get passed my pity parties. I had to learn to love myself with my disabilities. The OCD and the PTSD, haunted me. Although, I still struggle on a daily basis with having to live with the new me, I still do my best, to make the best of the new me and so can you. Who would have thought, at the brink of what could have been the end of my life, and after trying to commit suicide, I am here now writing this for all eyes to see. Please don’t give up. I believe in you and I know God does too. He can and will make a way where there is none!
God Bless You,